Had to be at work by 6 AM. Fucked up and slept till 05:40. Got the job done, that's all that matters.
After the shit yesterday, I convinced HR to mandate the doors be locked 24/7 now. I don't feel any better.
Had a nice walk after leaving work early. Fell asleep for a nap with the afternoon sun.
This shit isn't leaving me alone though. I'm nobody special, but I can't get over the fact that
this dude could have fucking ended me while I was taking a piss. I'm paranoid now. I'm checking all the doors and windows, and leaving all my guns loaded. Every sound that I hear is that guy coming back for me. If I didn't have dogs, I don't think I could sleep anymore.
I love Mary with all my heart but I go to sleep clutching Mike like my life depends on it. She worships me, but Mike is... violent. Violence is a comfort and a beloved trait as long as its on your side.
I've said it before and I'm going to keep saying it. If anyone ever comes after me, I want the first thing they see to be old Mike, fangs and fire.
I don't know if I can talk to Dawn about this. Not because of me, but because of her. I have to be Matt, not whatever the fuck I feel like now. Might be a little softer, but I'm still in charge.